Damn You, Ham Biscuit!

Matt and I went to the Canes/Bruins game last night and we had a perfect view of the buffet and the ham. I love ham, pork, bacon, a piglet in a tutu. It is all equally delicious to me. I headed to Bojangles this morning and had my planned ham biscuit for 10 points. Normally, if I would have started out the day with that I would've shot the whole day to hell and ate whatever I wanted. I didn't do that, but I ate a lot more points than I wanted. I haven't gone over my weekly points though. I also was exhausted all day and knew I was going to struggle with my sixty minute workout tonight. I came home and napped for about 45 minutes and FORCED myself on the bike and lift those weights. I did it and pushed through, cursing creatively throughout the hour. 

I have an appointment with my nutritionist tomorrow morning and I'm anxious to see her, I haven't seen her since December. She and I will be going over what are the best choices to make at restaurants, no matter where I go.

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Fuck The Scale

Fuck the scale. Seriously.

I lost .6lbs and I'm pissed. I worked out like crazy this week and banked all my activity points. I do cardio six days a week and weights three times a week. I went thru my weekly points, but  didn't go over. I'm super frustrated. I know, I know. I hear the same old things:

"At least you lost and didn't gain."
"I've had those weeks too"
"It's all part of the process"

Blah, blah, blah.  Bottom line, I haven't lost  the weight I've wanted and it's all on me. I'm mad, frustrated and annoyed. All my numbers sucked! My lean body mass went down and my body fat when up. Am I not working hard enough? Am I miscalculating my points? Is it really my thyroid?

Ok, so enough of that. I'm acknowledging the craptastic weigh in and looking forward to next weigh in. I decided a few things:

1) Change my weigh in day to  Saturday bc Sundays are a heavier meal for me and I tend to use most of my weekly points on that day. Although, I think I will be more careful doing that now! I will weigh in again this Saturday.

2) Work out 60 minutes a day. No whining, complaining, or bitching.

3) Rearrange points so that I'm not eating as many at night, basically lighter dinners.

4) Positive self talk. I've got to work on this! I have a huge support system and they say all the right things, and I just have to believe them. Friends on Facebook were so supportive today and I really appreciated it. I also watched Biggest Loser and the Red Team was going thru what I'm going thru now so it was helpful to watch tonight.

We tried another recipe that I wasn't all that excited about bc I had a feeling it was going to be spicy. Matt liked it but I wasn't all that excited about it bc it was kinda dry and yes, spicy. It was better in a pita with cheese. It is 1 point per ounce, pretty good! I wish I liked it more.

So, tha's it. The scale fucking sucks, but I'm going to kick ass next weigh in! 

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Pizza: 1 Me: 0

Man, if I don't plan my meals and enjoy them, I head for trouble. I know better! 

I started my morning out with a smoothie and it wasn't all that great. Not sure what I did wrong but I drank it anyway bc I was busy this morning and didn't have anything else. I wasn't feeling it and didn't feel satisfied. 

I went to lunch late, starving and saw pizza on the corner. I peeked in the box.....tiny square pieces. Ah, why do I think the tiny square ones taste so much better than the triangle pieces? As my WW Roast something or another was heating up, I ate a tiny square. So good and I enjoyed it. I had my taste and I was good. My WW meal was done, took a a bite and....ew. The meat looked like gray squares and tasted chewy and the veggies were limp. I ate it anyway, but wasn't satisfied. I ate another piece of pizza, and then another.....and then two more. OMG. 23 points! Almost a whole day! 

I'm not mad that I ate the actual pizza, what I'm upset about it that I didn't realize that the meal wasn't going to cut it. Once I realized that I wasn't going to be satisfied (and I knew this after my second bite), I could've dumped the meal and settled down with two pieces and enjoyed them without going thru my points like water. Two pieces would've been a lot better than 5! So instead of enjoying the two slices and feeling satisfied, now I've had a crappy meal and 5 pieces of pizza and waaayyyyyyy too full. Plus, I feel greasy! Ew! 

You eat, you learn, right? 

Still, it's embarrassing! Typical fat girl! 

Oh, well. I was going to take a night off from working out, but I think it's in my best interest to workout and enjoy burning some of those pizza calories off. 

Rule #1: ALWAYS plan healthy and satisfying meals! I think it's so important to LOVE what you are eating, so no matter what evil rep brings in for lunch, I won't care bc I have an amazing lunch waiting for me! Yesterday was a perfect example! I had such a great lunch planned and a rep brought Ruby Tuesday goodies. I just grabbed some fresh salad to go with my lunch and moved along.

I had a nice light dinner of popcorn, skinny cow candy and tea. 

The best freaking news of the day is that Justin Timberlake is coming out with new music and planning to tour again. I will probably have to start working the corners to save up enough money to see his show and meet him VIP style. It rarely tours so damn it, I will go out this time! 

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Weight In #1

I weighed in this morning and I'm down 2.1lbs. I'm not getting too excited, but it's encouraging. I'm not getting too excited bc I've been down this road before, losing and gaining, losing and gaining. Same old story. I'm not getting down on myself, I'm just being realistic. I have a long road ahead.

I racked up 6 activity points this evening with 30 minutes of biking and 30 minutes of strength training. I was SUPER hungry and Matt made such a great dinner! It was a serving of Trader Joe's BBQ Chicken, 1 cup of Bird's Eye Rice and some green beans, all for 8 points!

I'm excited bc FitBit announced on Facebook that we will soon be able to sync our FitBits directly to our phones soon and I'm so excited! I always forget to do it bc I have to hang out by our desktop and wait for it to sync up. I can't wait for this! 

In other news, it looks like I'll be heading to New Orleans in March with some of my friends for a long weekend. I'm really excited bc I have never been and I really want to try alligator and craw fish. I'm hoping to be down at least 15lbs by then and will be able to fit in some fun clothes. 

I'm gonna kick back with a Mini Ice Cream Cake and an US Weekly, have a good night! Did you workout today? 

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Crustless Spinach Quiche

Ah, day three of my healthier me campaign and it's going well! I freaking love watching TV and I'm not even going to lie about that. I decided that every 30 minutes of TV, I have to move for 30 minutes, whether it be weights, marching in place, dancing etc. Basically, 30 minutes of rest, 30 minutes of moving my ass. Once the bike I ordered comes in, I'll add that to the mix. I did weighs during an episode of Kendra yesterday and my arms are super sore today.

Eating has been going well too. I have a really hard time when we go out to eat bc I don't know what the best thing to order is, so I emailed my nutritionist and she is going to help me out with that next visit. I want to learn how to make smart choices and feel comfortable going out with my family and friends.

Matt assisted me in cooking today, as always. I found a recipe on SparkPeople called "Crustless Spinach Quiche" and it was relatively easy to make. I altered the recipe a bit bc I don't like onions or feta cheese. So, we used onion powder, whole wheat flour, used a serving of shredded cheese and mixed it in (not just on top), and I added more spinach than required. It came out really well and can't wait for breakfast tomorrow!

Here is the recipe:

Crustless Spinach Quiche

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I LOVE lazy Sundays. I'm relaxing on the couch watching old "Girls Nextdoor" DVDs, reading magazines and watching for some playoff hockey to start.

I got three great workouts in this weekend and feeling great. Clothes are already feeling looser since last week.

Today's workout was:

I haven't had chocolate in a week and so far, so good. No cravings so far, but it's still VERY early. 

Oh and great news! Two nights in a row with NO JOINT PAIN! I'm thrilled! 

Shout out to my two great friends, Julie and Jess, for completing a half marathon this weekend! I'm so impressed with your hard work and dedication. WAY TO GO! 

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